As this year come to an end, like every year I was looking back and analysing this year and realised that this year made me strong in every aspect mentally, physically and emotionally.
This year have alot of variations let me classify them.
Phase 1 : The corporate busy life
I started 2023 with so much uncertainty, I was the Vice President in an organization named AIESEC and my first quarter of the year went in attending meetings, creating thousands of ppts, having google meets with people all over the world ,i made many friends around the globe though! It was fun and hectic. I was not even able to take care of myself, I didn't realize when that time flies away, that phase gave me hell of confidence . But as my life doesn't go without dramas, there come a situation when I have to leave that post and that was quite hard for me but i took that decision.
Cut to phase two
Phase 2: The spiritual life
As then I left AIESEC, the transition from super busy life to having days when you have nothing to do, is where my mental health started suffering. I remember lying in my bed whole day and feeling anxious, then I remember a subordinate of mine in AIESEC told me about a meditation center kind of thing, I called him and asked him to take me there. I will be forever grateful for that person, who introduced me to heart fullness(the organization which teaches you meditation). I was meditating daily and then I experienced something that I never felt before. My daily practice of mediating only pushing me deeper into spirituality. I was experimenting new ways of going deep into it. Tried to wake up at 5 am and meditate. This phase of my life is so satisfying. I learnt the importance of having calm mind. And how everything seems secondary in this world.
Phase 3: The gym rat life
In this phase the only thing runs in my mind is what to eat next and watching proper forms and practicing them in gym, I remember how obsessed I became with gym, that was crazy.
I never thought I would become the person I became because of gym, like it have given me strength, peace and I learnt that how important is to break the barriers in the head first. Going a slight above our capacity . Decipline is what comes because of gym. My strong personality was coming up and that's I embraced the most this year.
Phase 4: Padhai padhai!
In this phase I was spending ten hours in library studying for entrance exam, which eventually I fucked up, but the process matters. I know at the end everyone see the results , but only I know the process and I'm proud of the days when I was studying beyond my capacity. When I was at my hometown but instead of being at home, I was at library, studying for hours and eating home cooked food in lunch box.
This is how my this year went, and I'm proud of myself . How I managed to do these things. I'm forever grateful for this year because I learnt how a balanced life should be, how a calm mind can do wonders, how having strength makes you confident. Also I met amazing people this year and my bond with the existing ones became strong.
Will continue to experimenting new ways of living better everyday in the next year. Because one thing that I learnt hard way this year, Is the efforts , is the process that matters, that give you the insights. I remember me struggling to manage all the phases together. But that was quite fun. Making my oats meal in the middle of study sessions so that I can eat it before one hour before going gym, eating that meal in the middle of classes .
I am really glad for the person I became this year! Self sufficient, person with a heart full of love. My love and faith for shiv ji just crossed the limits this year, I become more religious i could ever imagine, started reciting hanuman chalisa, listening to bhajans .
A different year but an amazing year, with lots of learning.
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