Its YOU v/s YOU always!!

 writing after a long time, I tried many times in this gap but couldn't gather all my thoughts together or I can say i couldn't understand my thoughts properly so that I could write them. past few months was very different in every manner. but the good thing is I figured out what I learnt in the past few months.

Guess who is the one you have a competition with, who is the one is restricting you, who is the one who loves you the most, who is the one be there for you when no one else, who is the one doubt you, who is the one you have to prove, who is the one makes you the happiest, who is the one make you feel miserable, who is the one make you cry, laugh. who?

Before you think other's name, stop!! Its YOU. You are the only one who makes yourself feel the above emotions. You are the one who is fighting with you. its just you !!

The person you have a crush on is nothing special but it's you who makes them special. no problem is big it' 's you who makes it big. You have might heard this quote, 'beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder', it should be' 'everything '  lies in the eyes of the beholder. 

There are many quotes on expectations and disappointments but no one talks about the pain caused by self disappointments, when you are sad with yourself, disappointed with yourself. everyone talks about happiness but no one talk about the happiness gets from the satisfaction one can have from themselves and their work. 

What I learned is don't take yourself too seriously but that also doesn't mean taking yourself as a joke. it means don't give that much importance to your every thought. 

You become what you think about yourself so never undervalue yourself. As bunny said khud pe daya kaarna chodo or khudse pyar krna sikho. change the fucking mindset it will surely change the fucking reality. 

One practical thing that really helps me is The act of pretending. If you want self-confidence, pretend to be confident, if you want to have a friendly nature, pretend it. because they say fake it till you make it. so play with yourself . You are your worst enemy and the same time your best friend. 

In the end, How you see things, is all that matters.